Dang it. I have just realised how stiff the competition is for my dream role, especially for someone with no real tertiary qualifications (must finish my Diploma as soon as possible). Why have I deleted all my previous blog posts, why didn’t I start a Mummy blog as soon as I had Lyla? Why didn’t I just put my head down and finish my Arts degree? Why don’t I have any physical evidence of my ability to construct a coherent sentence? Now I’m thinking it was over-ambitious and slightly delusional of me to even attempt to apply for a job when the competition is that good.
I have mentally rewritten my job application about fifteen times since I sent it, each one infinitely better than the last! Why didn’t I spend the extra day preparing, starting an online campaign promoting myself (because it’s not very me) I undersell myself. I know I can do this… and what is so frustrating is that there are probably 500 other girls in Sydney right now, chanting this exact same mantra. The only difference is - they’ve got the degree and I haven’t. I’ve buggered the opportunity of a lifetime, my only hope is that I’ll get another chance, somewhere along the line to prove I can excel at this job.